Update

Hello,

It has been awhile and I just want to update everything. Have moved to Portsmouth and been working on the house, taking down paper and painting. Gizmo died and we have a new puppy. Her name is Jasmine and she is a papered Corgie. I am babysitting with Jaden now and he doesn't like me. I had my gallbladder taken out and a lot of the back pain is now gone. That is about it. 

Moving????

I feel like I am being pulled in about 15 different ways. I don't even know what I want to do about the move and I am trying to make sure that Kelly isn't unhappy and I don't think about what I want. I don't know what to do and even where to look.

If I could do what I want, I think I would look around  the south or southwest but with Kelly I have to look around the Ironton/South Point or Athens or Lancaster, or maybe Portsmouth.  Kelly has three more years of school and doesn't want to move or change schools and I don't think that there will be anything around to rent.

 If I move to Portsmouth, I would have granny calling everyday and I can't handle that. If I move to Athens or Ironton, South Point, I don't know anyone. If I move to Lancaster, I have mom wanting to do stuff everyday.  But to move either south or southwest, I have Kelly not wanting to move. I feel this is a door that has been opened and a test to see what we will do. A opportunity has been given to us and will we take it. I need to do some praying and take a deep breath and calm down and maybe I will see what I need to do.

Comments would be helpful.

March 9, 2006

Things are coming together for the Bankruptcy.  I have finished the credit counseling, and now have to figure out the adversary for the student loans.  The paper from pathways isn't going to work, I think.  I have sent it out anyway and will have to make sure that the doctor signs another one when they get a doctor.  Big Sis, I think I need your help with this paper.

Next, is getting my big sis set up and getting kelly on a payment plan.

I hope that the papers for HUD will get to where they need to go, and in time.  I hate not having control of things like making sure papers get to where they need to be. Oh well.  I am starting the reading for the real estate program, and think I will like it.

Well, love ya all, I am going to bed.

February 24, 2006

Love is a fickle thing and when it goes bad it brings out the worst in everyone. I am giving up on ever finding love, I don't want to have to worry about am I going to hurt someone's else's feelings or ruin anyone with advice that I have given.  I am not in the market place anymore and am only going to observe from the sidelines from now on.    People need to listen to their heart and the feelings from the gut, they never lie and hardly are ever wrong.  I watch people's hearts break and feel so bad that there isn't anything that I can do to help fix it. But then again, my heart and gut tells me that they don't want me to see the hurt let alone offer to help fix it if I could.....so, I am quitting.

I am going to become a hermit and live my life with my dogs (I know they love me) and the world can kiss my a** goodbye.  I am not going to be involved with it anymore.  I will help my friends (all 2 of them) only when they ask for help and then do only what they tell me to do...I am tired of watching people hurt others just so that they can get something that they don't really want anyway; just because having it will hurt someone else.

well, I will get off my soapbox and go to bed and hope that tomorrow brings yet another day where people shit on each other and feel good about doing it.  Hope you all have a good day doing what ever it is that you will do to hurt other people. 

Maybe someday, a light will turn on and more people will realize what they are doing to other people and the world will become a nice place to live again. Till then, count me out. I am leaving, finding a place where there isn't very many people around.

I am tired of doing things for MEN that they think they should get for free, because they are too tight fisted to pay someone what they are worth for the work that they do...yet I am in a bind because he has something that I use and have to put up with his bullsh** to help myself...or my family. 

I am getting tired of asking for help with things and then having to get mad and yell to get anything done.  I can't do everything myself and yet if I don't, things fall apart or worse yet we live in a pig's sty.  Why can't things be simple and people thoughtfull toward each other?  I can't stand it anymore, I am going to start pitching things out the door and living like a monk.  A bed, a desk, a chair and one book.  That is all and everything else gets thrown away.

Well, I think that is enough for tonight, I am going to bed and not think anymore.